Gotta Do

I wrote this one while I was working for Quanta, about 6 months or so ago. I was worried about my job, wondering if they were going to start firing people. I started having that sinking feeling again, you know, that feeling of "where will I go if I lose my job" feeling. This song came out as a sort of declaration to the world that, well, I just really don't care anymore. I have had it with worrying about stuff that matters. I have been a Christian all my life, but have never really understood faith until now. Faith is not just learning to trust in God with my problems, it's learning to stop worrying so much about bad things when they do happen. That's the hard part. That's what usually kills my faith. It's only when I stop all the drama, drop my concern, and simply say, "I really don't give a crap what happens" that allows God to move. I know that sounds really strange, like I have stopped caring about everything. But until you go through something that causes you to understand that you really have no control over anything, that ANYTHING can go wrong, and will, that you understand why you need a God who is in control. I guess that all sounds a little preachy. Maybe it's preachy because God's word is in better view of reality that we sometimes give it credit.

Alright, I'm off the soapbox. The song is a pretty drastic departure from "Dad's Prayers", and I think shows some of my pop roots that I have to give some attention to now and then, or writing's just no fun. Please give feedback, through Facebook or wherever is most comfortable. Of course, any purchases of the mp3 will go to a currently unemployed songwriter. Thanks for listening.

Coming next month: a song for my Mom.

Dad's Prayers

This song is completely from my heart. It is about my Dad, of course, and his unwavering faith and consistency in prayer. When my Dad does pass on, I'm pretty sure this is what I'll have played at his funeral (which is weird and scary to think about right now). I'm very pleased with how this song came out, having recorded it on good ole Garageband at my friend Kevin Tucker's house. This was the first in a new series of recordings that have resulted in what I hope will be a new chapter of songwriting in my life, profitable or not. The song is truly 3 (maybe 4) chords and the truth. Love you Dad. Thanks for listening.

A quick update (9/26/09):
I called my Dad today. I told him to get on Facebook and go to the blog to listen to "Dad's Prayers." He has a 56k connection, so he said it was kind of choppy, but after about 10 minutes he was able to listen to it uninterrupted. He said he did not feel like he was worthy of the song. I shared with him some of the feedback I have been getting from those who have heard it before him, especially those who have said that it reminded them of him. I said "there's the proof." We talked about some things going on in my life and in his. And then he prayed for me, right there on the phone.